The feeling of knowing that someone is leaving you is really dreadful.

It's just like that time when he came back from Switzerland only to tell me that he is going away again, for an even longer time.

The days counting down to his departure was really hard to live through.

And the days without him are even harder to live through, although I'm slowly getting used to it.

Sometimes, I really hate myself for being so emotionally attached to someone so easily. I wish I could be more 潇洒, to just let things go more easily and to take things more easily. I don't want to keep having to repeat the pain again and again, though I know in life, it's inevitable. Nothing last forever.... Especially not good times. But.. Just lemme live longer in my dream, please... It's what keeps me going...

And you have been terribly missed...... :(