My life has been nothing but a rough roller coaster ride.

Ironically, I now miss the good old peaceful days, which in the past, I found it too boring for my liking.

I once had everything a girl ever wanted, but I let it go.

Maybe it's bad karma, I'm now suffering the consequences of my decision.

I know I should put an end to all these absurdly redundant misery, but sometimes, knowing is never enough.

You still need the extra dose of courage to top it off.

For so many years, these feelings have grown so strange to me that I no longer know how to deal with them.

And it hurts bad. So bad I just wanna will myself to fade away.

Once again, I'm at the crossroad, and not knowing which direction to take.....