Life Cleansing

Humans are born sentimental beings. We tend to keep so much mementos in our house which hold dear to us, and always giving ourselves 101 reasons why we should not throw them away. So much so that there comes a point of time when we realize we have no more space in the house to fit in new stuff, and start scattering things on any available space on the ground. Consequently, we start tripping over or knocking into stuff which have been strewn all around the house, and that's when we move our lazy bum to embark on the difficult journey to clean up and throw away unnecessary things.

This is exactly the same scenario which is happening right at this moment to some of our lives. There comes a point of time in our life where we find ourselves wanting to embark on the journey to move on to the next phase. And that's when we start opening our emotional drawers and realize how much old memories we still keep with us, and that the drawers are so full we have no space to fit in new memories. We start to scatter them all over any available space in our mind, and as the day passes, we find it increasingly harder to hold on to them as they held no permanent position in our hearts and minds. We start tripping over those new memories, and constantly falling back into the old and maybe unnecessary ones. This forms a vicious cycle where we will never be able to entirely move on due to having too much old baggage which we carries with us.

While it's true that memories are part of what made us who we are today, there should still be some form of "life cleansing" process to remove those unhealthy memories which weighs us down. This is not an easy process, but it is something all of us should at least go through a few times in our lives, especially when passing through major milestones to move on to the next phase.

Having gone through a minor "life cleansing" process myself recently, I can say it makes me feel a lot lighter (not on the weighing scale though). More work needs to be done to continue this cleansing, before I embark on the next ship to start my new journey. It's going to be tough, but I know the results will be rewarding. I will only bring new adventures and joy to the one whom I'm going to share my journey with. Those old and unpleasant baggage will just have to be thrown out of my emotional drawers, so that new mementos can fit in, and be etched in us for as long as our journey sails......

To Forgive Or Not To Forgive

There is a limit to just how much shit one can take. And there is also a limit to just how much one can forgive someone who keeps repeating the same mistakes.

So how do you forgive someone who keeps stepping on your land mine again and again, triggering the darkest side in you that you just feel like tearing that person apart once and for all?

The Ripple Effect

Just when you thought the waves are gone, and the water has regained it's calm, there came a larger storm which stirs up the mirror-like surface of the water and brings upon a new series of ripples and waves.

Waves that are huge enough to cause some serious devastation.

Ripples which keep echoing for the longest time even though the waves are gone, only to rub more salt into open wounds.

Lingering Mournings

There might be some people that create such impact in your life, that when they leave permanently from the face of the Earth, you get so upset you didn't even want to be reminded of the memories you had with this person. You didn't even want to have anything to do with this person, and you try to distant away those memories and throw it to the back of your mind.

However, the harder and farther you throw, those memories always come back. And when that happens, it hurts even more.

I've lost 2 persons very dear to me in my life. It's been years, but I have never stop mourning for them... and for my loss.

Lunar (Snakey) New Year

Happy Lunar New Year!

It's been a rainy first few days.... May this wet weather signifies wealth! (Since water is wealth...)

Abundance abound to all. Have an awesome snakey year ahead!

似有似无

当你觉得一切将结束的时候，总会有某些事让你又再次泛起心中的涟漪。

这感觉非常的不好受，但你又不能开口对谁说。更何况惹事的人或许也不晓得自己会有这种能耐。

又经过了一些时日，你觉得应该是彻底的散场了，也没逗留多久，正准备离去，主角的出现又让你找回那似有似无的感觉。

是混乱的。是复杂的。

Fragmented Memories

Missing pieces in your memories,

Some of them which you have entirely no recollection of.

Memory-loss? Or just some sort of sub-conscious housekeeping that selectively deletes away the part of the memories which you do not want to keep?

Either way, it's still a bliss to be able to leave behind old baggages.

Otherwise, you will never be able to move on.

Scumbag Expectations

It's funny how when you least expect something, it will magically be served to you on a silver platter.

On the contrary, the more you expect something, the more you will not get it.

Yup, that's the classic example of a scumbag expectation.

So, it simply just boils down to, having less expectations, and being more satisfied of the current situation.

But it doesn't mean one should stop dreaming, or having ambitions.

As long as you have the right expectations on how you would want to achieve your dreams and ambitions, and not setting impossible milestones for yourself, only to be disappointed for not being able to "reach your expectations" after all.

Mind Games

The best players are the ones who never put their heart into playing the games.

Dark and Silent

When darkness falls, and silence swallows,
the only thing alive is the vivid dreams.

So real that they confused the mind
of an alternate universe.

The only constant anchor is the sound of the heart beating
and waking to the despair that those are just dreams.

Revived...

...this space to remove the rusts on my writing skills.

This will be the channel for me to pen some random writings which pops up in my mind at the most random hours of the day (like 5AM in the morning after a sleepless night).

Happy 2013.